Today has been hard. A lot of things that have been bubbling under the surface came up. Now that I am allowing myself to feel things instead of stuffing them down, it looks like I’m forced to deal with issues rather than quietly moving around in resentment. Go figure.
Typically, when a disagreement arises I wind up walking away and holding my breath. That’s not part of this evolution though. So I said some shit. I got upset. I haven’t reacted like that… in tears rather than anger… in years.
There is a lot that I stuff down rather than confronting because the devil you know has always seemed better than the unknown.
I don’t know if there is any resolution here but I am unable to put up and shut up anymore.
Just for today, I will not get angry.